GRAMELT

Oh Lord, i almost have no more spirit. To straighten myself up, i ain't as passionate as before. I feel like i lost myself and somehow i often wanna hide from people. I never even talk to You in my loneliness. I know i can't blame everything that happened. I don't even think i deserve to cry over anything anymore. I feel i was unworthy and unable to complain anymore. Unfortunately, i didn't have a desire to pray either. Then, should i just blame myself? Forgive me, Lord. Lord, i know that all Your creations are truly beautiful in Your eyes, including me. However, sometimes i wonder whether i was made to be meaningless; will i end up being a bad person, or a needy, or a beggar, or someone with a mental disorder; whether i was created to be jobless, or unable to marry the man i currently love and hope for, or have no money. With my human mind, i see other people easily reach for what makes them happy, their dreams. Then, i saw myself and cried. Don't i deserve what my...